2013 was a year of reflection for me. I probably owe a majority of that to my writing as I now spend a lot more time "in my head".
In response to all I have learned about myself in the last 12 months as a result of my "reflecting", I have decided to bite the proverbial bullet and make a resolution for 2014.
A couple of months ago I came across a silver pendant with an inscription that read, "Find Joy in the Journey". I rarely purchase jewelry of any kind for myself, but I bought it. I wear it on a necklace and it is the first thing I see when I look in the mirror each morning.
This year my resolution is to find joy in my journey. That means different things to different people, but to me it means...
- I will be content with who I am. Not to be confused with complacent, as there is always room for becoming a better me. But I will work to do just that...become a better ME. I will NOT strive to be someone else.
- I will stop comparing myself to others. I will not allow someone else's life or achievements to minimize the significance of mine. The only person in control of that is me and, as Theodore Roosevelt once said, "Comparison is the thief of joy". I mustn't steal my own joy.
- I will feed the relationships that bring me happiness, and walk away from the ones that don't.
- I will remember the serenity prayer and the part about things that are out of my control. And I will let them go.
- I will stop beating myself up for the times I "fail" at parenting. Some days I will yell and some days I will pack sugar and preservatives in my children's lunches and some days I will let them watch television for 4 hours straight. Some days I'll spend too much time on my phone or my computer. I will take those days for what they are and then I will rejoice in the other days. The ones when I don't do any of those things and instead have a myriad of parenting "wins". The days when I cook homemade meals and play at the park and read bedtime stories. And regardless of which kind of parenting day I have, I know that each night I'll tuck my kids into bed with a kiss and a hug and they will have no question as to how immeasurably they are loved.
- I will be mindful of my health and my body, but I will stop worrying so much about what society says my "outer self" should look like. I will be okay with the fact that I may no longer wear a size
2 4 6(You get what I'm saying. P.S. I've never been a size 2.). I will spend more time working toward becoming an extraordinary person in what most would consider an ordinary body rather than the other way around.
This is probably the hardest resolution I've ever made. It is also one that will, no doubt, need to be re-resolved year after year.
So, friends, whatever your resolution for the next 365 days may (or may not) be, my wish for you is that you will find joy in your journey.